finding my way back to me

I am not me!
Not the me I thought I was meant to be!

I did a tremendous error to day! Guilt fills me and disdain!
But here is the thing, I realised I am dwelling in a stagnant lake of a lower version of myself; this Today I decided to let go of!

I deserve to treat myself better. To honour the SOUL GOD BREATHE into me!
If HE IS KEEPING me alive, HE IS GIVING me a chance!

I signed on to my goodreads.com account and realised I had not read enough in my life, and yet, I give the impression of being a knowledgeable person; plus, my inner philosophy and pride, which I was born with, THANK GOD :) My dad even referred to me in my early years, back as a toddler, as someone who gave the impression of a highly sophisticated mentality.

I do not know if this was true or not. I don't even know if this stands true at the moment or not. I have a inner melody somewhere, which has turned out of tune. Today, I realised in loving A more than myself, my "self" apparently got too hurt, she left me! Now that I am totally lost...I am finding my way back to me...

It starts by a decision and I am a warrior with virtues
So, in finding the way, I choose to exemplify GI, YU and MAKOTO :) There lies my MEIYO! (if you know what I mean :D)