I promised you.

Some words...
...spring open from a heart so wounded, to light, for good, hearts that fear the dark...

Nizar Qabani, just surprised me with his words:

الحمد لله أني كذبت

THANK GOD, I lied!

Lying is a sin, yet here Qabani embodies that some lies are the first step in finding the truth.

Without a big lie, how can we appreciate a great truth? :)

Well, that is how I see it now! Maybe the future has something else to teach?

THANK GOD :)

To the beautiful melody tunes of immortal Kathim El Sahir, I listened to the angelic voice of Majda El Roumy singing this meaning...

A great insight for Today :) I so much needed...I felt and related to these words and was deeply touched by...the following...(song embeded below translation)

I promised you
I promised you, to no more love you.. then in front of the big decision I grew cowardI promised you, to no more love you.. then in front of the big decision I grew coward
I promised you, not to come back and came.. not to die longing and died
I promised, things, larger than me; so what did I do to myself?
I was lying from the intensity of truth
Praise God, Praise God .. Praise God that I lied
I promised you not to be a prisoner to my weakness, yet as so was I, and to say not to your eyes poetry, and yet so did I sayI promised you not to be a prisoner to my weakness, yet as so was I, and to say not to your eyes poetry, and yet so did I say
I  promised not to, and not to and not to...
For how and where and on what day did I promise?
I was lying from the strength of truth.
Praise God, Praise God .. Praise God that I lied
I promised you, not to chase for shells, at the shore of your eyes, for a year long...
So how do I say strange words as such?
When your eyes are my home...my home...your eyes are my home...and your eyes are my home and the abode of Peace
Ad you are the start...and you are the start of everything
And the perfect conclusion

وعدتك
وعدتك الا احيك ..ثم امام القرار الكبير جبنت
وعدتك الا احيك ..ثم امام القرار الكبير جبنت
وعدتك الا اعود و عودت ..ولا اموت اشتياقا و موت
وعدت بى اشياء اكبر منى فماذا بنفسى فعلت
لقد كنت اكذب من شدة الصدق
و الحمد الله الحمد الله..انى كذبت الحمد الله
وعدنك الا اكون اسيرت ضعفى و كونت..ولا اقولى لعيناك شعر و قولت
وعدنك الا اكون اسيرت ضعفى و كونت..ولا اقولى لعيناك شعر و قولت
وعدتى بالا و الا والا
فكيف و اين و فى اى يوم ترانى وعدت
لقد كنت اكذب من شدة الصدق
و الحمد الله الحمد الله..انى كذبت الحمد الله
وعدتك الا اصيد المحار بشطاّن عيناك طيلت عام
فكيف اقول كلام غريب كهذا الكلام
و عيناك دارى دارى عيناك دارى..و عيناك دارى و دار السلام
و انت البداية و انت البداية فى كل شئ
ومسك الختام مسك الختام

May we find the truth...all days.

Smile

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

Be happy!

You are happy.
So do I hope.
I hope you have found your rhythm
I hope you have found the light in you.

I am happy.
So do I hope.
Happy in remembering our paths once crossed.
Happy you are happy again.

Sometimes, I am hurting bad.
Sometimes, the pain I can't withstand.
But then I remember, a melody I believe in.
That all that happens, happens for a reason.
That what is meant to be will be.

That all that has been was ideal
Even if so, it does not seem.

Sometimes, I wish our paths will cross again.
Sometimes, I wonder if this is forever.
But I rejoice in knowing that for now, you're happy.
I saw a picture of you with puppy, happy eyes.
I just realised now.
The first time I saw it, it seemed you were sad and broken.

How can the same photo give me a different feel.
How can I still feel...when you are broken, when you are happy.
When you're hoping and living and trying.

I pray for your happiness, I send you light.
I miss you all day round.
Then I look into my heart, and say.
Never mind, he's happy. He's alright!

Beats!

Out of the blue...literally, an earworm caught me...I felt a need to listen to this beat, even if without a singer and words.
One day, I have no clue when, I will know, why on some days, certain sounds, words, pictures and faces resonate more than others, with our being.
Till then, this beat suits me well Today!

This is a song about a lover who has been missing for years his lover...wondering if there will be another chance of reconciliation. He claims since their separation, he could not feel genuine happiness, or peace.

Wonder which wins when..."out of sight, out of mind" or "distance makes the heart grow fonder"?
Guess time tells everyone, which for him/her is which!

What I love about the beat though...is the persistent hope despite the sadness...and logic!

Whoever passes by here, I hope you enjoy as much as I did :)

May we live all days of our lives!

إغضب - نزار قباني

إغضبْ كما تشاءُ.. واجرحْ أحاسيسي كما تشاءُ حطّم أواني الزّهرِ والمرايا هدّدْ بحبِّ امرأةٍ سوايا.. فكلُّ ما تفعلهُ سواءُ.. كلُّ ما تقولهُ سواءُ .. فأنتَ كالأطفالِ يا حبيبي نحبّهمْ.. مهما لنا أساؤوا.. إغضبْ! فأنتَ رائعٌ حقاً متى تثورُ إغضب! فلولا الموجُ ما تكوَّنت بحورُ.. كنْ عاصفاً.. كُنْ ممطراً.. فإنَّ قلبي دائماً غفورُ إغضب! فلنْ أجيبَ بالتحدّي فأنتَ طفلٌ عابثٌ.. يملؤهُ الغرورُ.. وكيفَ من صغارها.. تنتقمُ الطيورُ؟ إذهبْ.. إذا يوماً مللتَ منّي.. واتهمِ الأقدارَ واتّهمني.. أما أنا فإني.. سأكتفي بدمعي وحزني.. فالصمتُ كبرياءُ والحزنُ كبرياءُ إذهبْ.. إذا أتعبكَ البقاءُ.. فالأرضُ فيها العطرُ والنساءُ.. والأعين الخضراء والسوداء وعندما تريد أن تراني وعندما تحتاجُ كالطفلِ إلى حناني..  فعُدْ إلى قلبي متى تشاءُ..  فأنتَ في حياتيَ الهواءُ.. وأنتَ.. عندي الأرضُ والسماءُ.. إغضبْ كما تشاءُ واذهبْ كما تشاءُ واذهبْ.. متى تشاءُ لا بدَّ أن تعودَ ذاتَ يومٍ وقد عرفتَ ما هوَ الوفاءُ...

بردي يا سحب - إيليا أبو ماضي

رضيت نفسي بقسمتها***فليراود غيري الشّهبا

كلّ نجم لا اهتداء به***لا أبالي لاح أو غربا

كلّ نهر لا ارتواء به***لا أبالي سال أو نضبا

ما غد ، يا من يصوره***لي شيئا رائعا عجبا

ما له عين و ل أثر***هو كالأمس الذي ذهبا

أسقني الصهباء إن حضرت***ثمّ صف لي الكأس و الحببا

ليس يرويني مقالك لي***أنّها العقيان منسكبا

إنّ صدقا لا أحسّ به***هو شيء يشبه الكذبا

لا ينجي الشاه من سغب***أنّ في أرض السّهى عشبا

ما على من لا يطيق يرى***نوّر الوادي أو اكتئبا

ما يفيد الطير في قفص***ضاق هذا الجوّ أو رحبا

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برّدي ، يا سجي ، من ظمأي***واهطلي من بعد ذا ذهبا

أو فكوني غير راحمة***حمما حمراء لا سحبا

ولأكن وحدي لها هدفا***و لتكن نفسي لها حطبا

أنا من قوم إذا حزنوا***وجدوا في حزنهم طربا

و إذا ما غاية صعبت***هوّنوا بالترك ما صعبا